irritated, frustrated and angry at the husband. He seriously actually made an attempt at sex last night. seriously.
after doing absolutely nothing I asked him to do while me and the kids were away. He couldnt even be bothered to put my car in the garage "it isnt a priority", return diapers to bjs, or call the vet.
i finally carried the tote of clothes to the second floor that has been at the bottom of the stairs for over two months. And when I asked him to change a diaper at 3am he heavy sighed and said he was tired because he was up with jake- suck it up fucker I am up with molly multiple times every night.
She was fussing for two hours the other morning and he didnt say a word or offer any help. And then last night he was with her for an hour and a half and when i got home said he was "done" with her. When I left the room later that night and she was crying on the couch next to him he didnt even attempt to pick her up - he just ignored her.
I hate him.
I hate that I think he he thinks molly is a bitch like her mother. I hate that he is not a partner, that he is a lazy fuck, that he would rather facebook than give jake a hug or cuddle- yes that actually happened- he wouldnt get off the computer when jake asked.
i hate that he is a disorganized, doesnt pick up after himself, cant find anything when he looks for something and knows its there, that he chews icecubes, picks his nose.
I hate that he refuses to take care of his family in the ways that we need it and not just monetary. I hate that he is a cold son of a bitch. The only person he shows affection to is jake and only on his terms.
I want to be loved the way I deserve and have a partner in life who will take care of my needs and I can take care of theirs. A give and take relationship.
I am angry.
I didnt want him to come to the cape and I didnt want to go home. Its almost worse when he is there.
I hope we make it thru this. I am so tired of always giving up what I want because he cant give it to me.